After my realization yesterday of why God brought me all the way down to the bottom, after reaching the top, I’ve decided to use this journal to record my experience getting back to the top. Because He told me to bring others with me to the top. -Fall 2024

What the heck am I talking about? From the bottom to the top? Nah I’m not a rapper. To the top of the mountain? I believe so, my own personal mountain of becoming a more peaceful parent.

I became a mother in 2019 and since then, my life has been constantly focused on the nourishment of my children. Lots of reading books on emotional development and nutrition and exercise and toxicity and developmental progress and education and nurturing and all the things. I was obsessed and still am in 2026 now with two children. But now, life feels so much more busy because I can’t just do me, I have to do for them.

• Cleaning the house
• Keeping track of appointments
• Homeschooling
• Taking them places to do fun things
• Extra-curricular activities
• Grocery shopping

The list can easily go on. In the midst of doing everything for others, I neglect myself, which leads to a frustrated and cranky parent. Exploding my overwhelm on my children who did nothing but be themselves.

So in Winter 2024, I invested in myself and enrolled in a course called Peaceful Parent Happy Kids led by Laura Markham.

I had been reading her book Peaceful Parent Happy Kids a few years prior and highlighted and underlined so much in the book. I will tell you that book and course was life changing. It is a life-time access, 12 week online self-paced course and each week focuses on something specific for you to work on yourself to become a less exploding parent and more peaceful.

I never did the full 12 weeks and instead focused really hard on the lessons taught which would take more than a week for me. There was one week in 2024, maybe in summer, where we had the perfect week. I was a peaceful parent that entire week. I did not yell or scream, I was present and connected with my children, I wasn’t upset about anything because I could see what would lead to an upset child (because I was present and watching them and actively engaged with them) and could help diffuse the situation as well as help them resolve their own conflicts. I made it to the top of the mountain.

And then, I don’t remember what happened, but the following week, I was back down at the bottom. Fussing, yelling, doing too much like cleaning, no longer actively present in the lives of my children, which brought me peace. In the fall, that’s when God spoke to me and gave me that realization, the one at the top of this page. Since then, I’ve tried the course 2-3 times and still never completed the full 12 weeks, and never made it back to the top of the mountain.

And you want to know something, I’ve been told to write this blog since 2022, a whole 2 years before actually reaching the top, when things weren’t as hard or as stressful as they later on became.

So the timeline:

• 2019 – became a mother
• 2022 – God told me to start this blog
• 2024 – reached the top of the mountain (peaceful parent) and was humbled back down to the bottom within 2 weeks time.
• 2026 – actually writing the blog and doing what He told me to do.

Let’s see where God takes me when I do what He told me to do. Let’s see how my life and the lives of my family transforms.

Until next time.